I recently spent a whole week making these 16 huge dreamcatchers to be sold on the Free People website. I was so excited for it. I was so excited to share this image with everyone as an announcement that they were on the site for all to see. I was proud.
But, I just received word that when they arrived at Free People's shipment center, every single one of them was broken. Every single one.
Every single dreamcatcher that I cut, and glued, and braided, and tied. I gave them names, I sung to them. I stayed up late and got up early and Snapchatted the living daylights out of them. And none of them made it through.
It always seems like just when life is giving you everything, it goes back and takes a huge chunk away.
Last week, someone broke into my car, and hardly stole anything... except for the brand new bottle of herbs that I was depending on to make my body finally heal after more than 3 years of whatever the ef has been going inside of it. Seriously. I was so excited to start taking them. The doctor is in Brooklyn and his office is only open a few times a week, so I've had to go this whole week without that bottle.
And as I write this post with tears in my eyes, I know it's all good. It's always been all good, and it will always be good. Things get hard, and often all at once. But we're strong enough to handle them, otherwise they wouldn't happen to us to begin with.
Instead of letting these things ruin my day, my week, my month... I'd rather keep going. Let's focus on the good things, and realize that these little things are not life or death. But you know what? Even if they were... it's still all good.
So yes, I will make those dreamcatchers again. I will make them even better, even more beautiful, and with even more intention as I do so. I will package them up like they're about to be launched into space. Transit won't have a shot against them. And as for the bottle of herbs that will be in my hands in just five short hours... well I will carry that thing with me wherever I go.
It's all good baby, baby. And if you don't know, now you know.