9.09.2014

The Come Up



It seems right now that things are on the up for me, in all aspects of life. A few minutes ago I found myself watching all the videos I recorded in Photo Booth on my laptop in the past two years. It's incredible to think of how much I've experienced since then, and how different my life is at this point in time. But the most miraculous differences are not in where I'm living, what I'm doing for work, or anything like that.

They're in my own well being. When I look back at those videos. Holy shit. I was 15 pounds heavier, skin broken out like crazy... I just didn't look good. No, it's not about what's on the outside, but -- more often than not -- the outside is a direct reflection of the inside, and it's crazy to see.

I was stressed. I was working too hard. I was eating shit. Gluten overload and so many processed foods. I was using beauty products that were far from natural. I wasn't doing any physical activity. I was partying. I was anxious. I wasn't... truly... happy. Something was off. Everything was off. I was fearful of life. Stuck in a whirlwind that was swallowing me whole. I didn't know what to do.

But, now...

I'm the least stressed I've ever been. I'm taking it easy. I'm eating so well. No grains, nothing processed. Everything from the earth. Everything the highest quality I can get. Natural beauty products galore. I work out incredibly hard 3-4 times a week. I hardly party; I certainly don't drink. Anxiety: almost fully gone. No, I'm not totally healed, but I feel happier and healthier with every waking morning. I'm getting back on track. Things are falling into place. Opportunities are arising.

Life doesn't scare me. It makes me feel excited.

You guys, this isn't just about me. This is about all of us. It's about you. Take it from me, because I've fucking been there, and I'm sure you have too. You have to take care of yourself.

You have to.

I'm not sure you're hearing me.

Take care of yourself. Every day. Put yourself first. It's not selfish -- it's just the opposite. Once you put care into yourself -- the amount of care you deserve -- everything else starts to fall into place. It becomes easier, more natural, to care for those around you. The love just flows. You don't have to try.

Making the shift -- the conscious decision -- to take care of yourself... is one of the most difficult things you'll ever do.

Maybe you're reading these words and nodding your head. Maybe you know you need to put more care into yourself. Your body. Your life.

But will you do it? Nod with me. Smile. Make the decision right now, and fucking put that idea into action. Your life is right here and right now, and you deserve to live the happiest one possible.

No more excuses. Don't create hurdles where hurdles don't have to be. They're likely just an illusion created by your mind out of fear anyway. What is the point of being fearful? What good has it ever done? You're smart. You know you are. Decide what's important to you. Embrace what's positive, get rid of what's negative.

Are you ready? Let's go.

Photos by Charlotte.

28 comments :

  1. I reaaalllly admire you taking ownership of your body--I just think it manifests into so many things, what you're about, how you approach things...it's swell! I was wondering--what was your first action? The smallest tiniest thing you started to do that pushed you forward into a new chapter for yourself?

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    1. Thank you, babe! I think it was a culmination of a lot of things. Natural beauty products... eating better... yoga... Ayurveda... organic everything... slowly, one by one, I started to adopt more of a natural way of living. All of those were brewing for a few years, slowly causing a shift inside of me. But, what really pushed me into this new chapter was much more abrupt. I got into a car accident in January -- totally my fault. No one got hurt, thank goodness. But, it happened because I just COULD NOT FOCUS. I couldn't. No matter what I did. The very next day, on a TOTAL whim, I told my boss that I just couldn't do it anymore; that I had to leave my job... and I haven't looked back since.

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  2. This is kind of unrelated to this post, but I really love the post (sidenote). The question is- why do you decide to use blogger, and do you think it's a useful platform or have you considered switching to something else since you've started to get more followers?

    Thanks girl :)

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    1. I used to use Word Press and switched over to Blogger a few years ago just because I had some friends with blogs who used it, haha! I know a lot of people prefer Word Press, but it doesn't really matter to me. The main reason I like Blogger is that it's easier for me to get everything to look the way I want, haha!

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  3. I really needed to hear this. now. today.

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  4. So perfect. I remember, straight out of college, my first job in NYC, that is the person i WAS. (The old you, I mean).
    I look back and think of how many terrible and unhealthy things I did to my own body as a means of coping with the big scary world that I had just flung myself into head first.
    It's so much nicer to have that... for lack of a better term, "settled down" feeling, where I notice each day, the good things about it, and although life is a little less hectic, it's so much more beautiful and promising these days.

    I feel ya.

    <3 dani

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  5. hi! I am new here, you are so right , i am trying to do the same during last year or so...it's just smth still doesnt work. I am full of stress and i cant focus at all, studying is just no efficient... I am trying to listen and read to inspirational post like yours i would also love to know more how your process was like if it is possible. I think deep inside me i know that no matter how much i will care about myself physically, it still will be the mind factor, which is takind me down... Lack of passion, graduating in smth which occured not my thing, and complete unconciousness of what i want/should do... I am lost, and from years i dont know how to fix it. And i am not sure if healthy lifestyle could help my broken soul...

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    1. Hi! I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all of this right now. :( The mind is a crazy thing, and I have lots of work to do with my own, as well. I have found, though, that taking care of the body paves the way for the mind to be in better spirits as well, so I think that physical alterations are a great first step, but they're certainly not everything. It is TOTALLY okay to be unsure of what you want to do (I change my mind every day, and often feel lost there as well), but the most important thing to do is take what ISN'T working for you and remove it from your life. Then, just take baby steps in a positive direction until you find what you truly love. If you're graduating in something that you're not passionate about, do yourself a favor and DO NOT GO ANY FURTHER WITH IT. You will be harming yourself and digging yourself deeper and deeper into a hole. I don't know what your situation is like, but maybe it could be good for you to do some traveling after you graduate? Traveling is always an eye-opening experience... it can open your mind to new ideas and thoughts you'd never had, and teach you things about yourself you never knew. <3

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    2. "If you're graduating in something that you're not passionate about, do yourself a favor and DO NOT GO ANY FURTHER WITH IT. You will be harming yourself and digging yourself deeper and deeper into a hole."

      I can't emphasize this enough. It's terrifying and difficult to make significant changes, but it you are not happy with your field NOW, your feelings are not likely to change. Save your money, and more importantly, your time! Life is precious. The change might be a challenge, but IMO the challenge can be soooo satisfying. xoxo

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    3. Thank you all :) You are right and i should take responsibilty for my longing for happiness even if it means making a lot mess at first....
      At least even when i dont want to do, i should totally remove those things i am not fine about... It will be hard, but i owe it to myself...
      I thought about travelling, I am thinking about it all the time, i kind of feel subconsciously that its the only way to find myself. To wake up.
      I am looking for a work/travelling time after graduating...even that i am 23.
      Thanks once again, keep your fingers crossed for my messy decicions :P

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  6. This is beautiful. You're beautiful. Inspiration for the day

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  7. Thank you for sharing with us! I just discovered this space a few weeks ago and your words, imagery and interests are a true inspiration. Keep going!

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  8. it's amazing how reading the right thing at the right time can have such an impact. Thank You for this lovely post :)

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  9. Taking care of myself is the best thing that ever happened to me. It's an ongoing journey for sure, but it has made me a better, happier person and in turn I want to spread it to the world. This post has inspired me to stick to it! Sometimes, we find ourselves drifting and need a little kick to keep us on the right path. Thank you.

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    1. I MEANT TO PUT THAT IN THERE. Fixed it.

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  11. Hold up tho what do you eat for breakfast? I've been a vegetarian for two years and oatmeal is bae I don't know how to do without

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    1. Hahah, usually fruit followed by egg whites, kale, and avocado... but you should try quinoa flakes! They take, like, one minute to make on the stove, and you can mix in raisins, nuts, honey, almond milk... whatever you want! They have more a mushy consistency than oatmeal but I love 'em :)

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  12. I love you Brig!!!!! You are so inspiring and I am so proud of all you've been accomplishing for yourself! Hope to see you soon

    xx Cher

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  13. Do you follow any blogs for food inspiration? I am a vegetarian and eat gluten in almost every meal.. it's so easy to just eat a veggie burger sandwich and not worry about cooking. I definitely feel like my current lifestyle needs a change, and my diet would be the best place to start.

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    1. she featured this one in a fp blogpost so..
      http://www.thisrawsomeveganlife.com/

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    2. Yup! Love This Rawsome Vegan Life. Tasty Yummies is another awesome one -- everything's clean & gluten free :) http://tasty-yummies.com/

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  14. Congratulations on being able to take better care of yourself. When you feel great, there is no reason not to be a great person. Exercise is definitely a game changer physically and mentally, when I am on the treadmill asking myself "do I really need to complete this next mile?" it helps to think of how you feel afterward: aware and accomplished. Keep inspiring us with your achievements and goals.

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  15. oh thank you! Your words were really inspiring!

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  16. Loved reading this post! I'm currently doing the candida diet, feeling crap and like things are never going to get better. This gives me hope I will feel better overall soon.
    How did you candida diet go? Did you kick the tricky bugger?

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    1. Actually... I started seeing a naturopath/acupuncturist, and on my first day I asked him if he thought I had candida. His response was "Well... you can't really blame something like this on a bug. The truth is, if our bodies are functioning properly, we can eat a bowl full of parasites and be totally fine." And he's right! So he's been working on healing my digestive system as a whole -- so that it can heal the candida (or whatever other issues I'm having) on its own. I basically follow the paleo diet now, which is similar to the candida diet in that I don't eat grains, most starches, and sugar -- but I do eat natural sugars like fruit and honey. I get acupuncture from him once a week and take supplements like zinc and digestive enzymes. I'm not totally there yet, but I feel so so much better every day. I would reallly really recommend you to find an awesome natural doctor to help you along. If you live in/around New York, let me know and I can give you my doctor's info!!

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  17. thank you. i needed this.
    <3
    xoxo

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