On the Come Up


If there's one thing at which I'm confident in my abilities in doing, it's making music videos... of myself. I am fully aware at how narcissistic this is. But its effect on me actually goes a lot deeper. So much deeper, in fact, that the narcissism becomes irrelevant to me.

Here's a list of some of the main things that I'm about. Things that make me ~feel~. Things that make me ~me~.

Self love

When I make one of these videos, I'm not just doing it so that I can look cool. I'm not just doing it so that I can receive praise from those who see the final product. I'm doing it to create. I'm doing it to make something from start to finish. From concept to production to execution. I am using my hands, my eye, and my heart at every step of the process. By using myself as the subject, I get to feel the love I have for myself. I get to feel like a star. I get to portray myself in a way that makes me feel like a goddess. When I make one of these videos, I get to experience the above list of things all at once, and exercise and grow my talents all at the same time. Why the hell wouldn't I.

Whatever it is that makes ~you~ feel. Whatever it is that allows you to grow and shine and exercise ~your~ talents. Do it. That's what you're here for. Be the star you already are.



Raise Up; Soften

Life is insane. Moving through this life on this earth is not easy. In fact, it's really fucking hard. Individually and collectively. For all different reasons. Just when you think you've seen it all; just when you think you're at your lowest -- or maybe you've even finally reached your highest -- you're suddenly hit with something you never could have fathomed. Whatever that something is, there was no way you could have ever prepared for it. No way. Well, not for that thing specifically, at least.

You see, the individual life that each one of us lives is a direct reflection of our very own perspective. In essence, we see things as we choose to see them. And that is exactly where our most basic -- yet most transformative -- power lies.

Let's make the decision to view this life through the lens of love. To pick out the happiness, the beauty, the light. The things that lift us up. Surround yourself with people who make you feel good. And I mean the real kind of good. Not that phony kind of good that the ego tricks us into thinking is the real kind of good. I mean the luminous kind of good that comes from the heart. The kind of good that has you walking on actual air. You know it when you feel it.

If we want to make this life a better experience for all, it's our job, collectively, to raise the vibration of this planet. And that collective vibration starts on a singular level. It starts with you. And you, and you, and you, and you. And me.

Let's choose to embody love. To fill each one of our bodies with light until all 50 trillion cells are ready to burst. In a good way.

Some will label us ignorant for even hinting that it's possible to feel happiness at a time like this. And it's not their fault for thinking that way. But we won't let that change us. Instead, we simply turn to them and say, "Try it with me, won't you?"

Because, my dears, there is nothing shameful about being a source of love. Especially at a time we need it most. The future of love and happiness depends on us. We can not -- and will not -- let them dissipate.

I will admit to you I am not love all the time. I fall off and fall off, again and again. I'm not proud of these times, how could I be? What I'm proud of, though, is my ability to notice. To take a step back and a nice deep breath, and decide to start again.

No matter what, we can always start again.

*If you have a feeling that you are the person who inspired this blog post, you absolutely are, and I want to thank you for that. I don't mean "thank you" in a facetious way, even though my stomach has been in knots for the past couple of days. You have reminded me that I need to keep doing the job I know I'm here to do, even though you and I have different ideas of what that job might be. I might not support the route you've chosen to do your own work, and I do believe it might behoove you to soften just a little; to alter the lens through which you're currently looking, but I do, without a doubt, stand behind your passion and your unwillingness to give up. We're all warriors. Each in our own way.


Ten Things

1. In August I began a new thang as a social media specialist at Etsy. I can't believe it's already been 5 months, but what's more unbelievable is how much I've already learned from the ridiculously intelligent and talented group of people I work with. Damn. It had been a dream of mine to work for this company, and it really happened. It's really happening.

2. You already know I'm obsessed with potato chips. Welp, now there's a new thing: Taco Dumbo. Specifically their rotisserie chicken tacos. Still obsessed with potato chips, though. 

3. Another thing I really like right now: wearing earrings. Specifically these ones. I've been getting lots of compliments on these, and I'm always proud to say they were made by an Etsy seller.

4. When it comes to love and romance, I don't really know how to go halfway. It's funny, really. I'll meet a guy and immediately think he's it. That he's the one I've been dreaming of my whole life. So quickly do I fall into it, and just as quickly do I fall right back out of it. It used to be just a matter of months. But more recently, it's been a matter of weeks. Maybe I'm putting up barriers and letting fear take over too quickly, or maybe I'm learning to be more in tune with my own energy and what does and doesn't work for me. I happen to believe it's the latter.

5. In April I'll be moving into a new apartment (yet to be discovered). My top requirement for said apartment: sunlight. Specifically, direct sunlight. I need to have a bedroom with south-facing windows. It's going to be life changing. 

6. Remember when I taught my cat to sit, give me his paw, stand on his hind legs, and take a couple steps backwards? I'm now in the process of teaching him to speak on command. Such a smart cookie, that one.

7. In case you didn't see it yet, I started a beauty account on Instagram. I'm planning to do a giveaway once I hit 1k followers, so wut's good? I also have a fun YouYube collab in the works. Wait for it.

8. I've always liked feeding fish. You know, like, goldfish. But I could never stand the smell of fish food. No clue why that just popped into my head, but, w/e.

9. I have not had a sip of alcohol since New Year's Eve. My poor precious body just can't handle it. I'm done thinking I'm invincible. My body is delicate and beautiful and it deserves to be treated as such.

10. Vitamin D supplements are really a lifesaver in the winter. Over and out.

Photo by Olivia Khoury. <3


Skin + Hair + Dirty Lemon

I think you guys probably know this by now, but if there's one thing I'm all about, it's natural beauty. I'm allll about gettin' that radiant glow, especially from the inside out.

My girl Christina recently told me about Dirty Lemon and their skin + hair beverage. The way she described it to me was that it was kinda like a juice cleanse, but without giving up any of the food you normally eat.

So, it's like a liquid supplement? Glowing skin and hair in a bottle? Count me in.

According to the pros at Dirty Lemon, the ingredients in this blend were carefully selected to improve skin elasticity, hydration, and skin density, increase internal collagen production, and offer nutrients for optimal hair health.

It's made of 6 ingredients: filtered water, cold pressed lemon juice, horsetail, red clover, cayenne, and hydrolyzed marine collagen peptides.

I tried a case of this potion (that's 6 bottles). One per day. Doesn't matter if you drink a bottle first thing in the morning, right before bed, or spread out through the day. You can do whatever works for you.

My favorite part was the unmistakable buzz I'd feel immediately after drinking a bottle. It was as if I could feel my circulation improving right then and there. It felt like every cell in my body was buzzing about, ready to take care of whatever it needed to take care of.

If any of you have tried any Dirty Lemon beverages, I wanna hear! Leave a comment and let me know how they worked for you.

PS. For more beauty and wellness stuff, I started a new Instagram account! Follow here :)


Intuitive Stretching

Back when I was living in Philly, I used to attend a type of yoga class like no other, taught by a woman who I look to as one of my most precious spiritual teachers, among a million other things. It was through her that I learned the true importance of listening intently and intuitively to the information my body is sharing with me. And that's exactly what I do. Every day, to some extent, I stretch and move my body in ways I feel it's calling me to. Usually at home. On my bed... in the kitchen... and now on this beautiful yoga mat by La Vie Boheme Yoga.

It's really really important to me that every single item in my home feels like it belongs. With an apartment filled with plants, this beauty was a no brainer. I step right on, and suddenly I'm in a magical jungle. It's perfect.

If you've never tried moving your body intuitively, I really suggest you try it. It can be an incredible experience -- eye-opening, even. I find this to be most magical to do at night, when all of your tasks are done for the day. Find a clear, quiet spot, and roll out your mat. Light some candles, incense, palo santo. Turn on some vibey music, whatever that may be for you. Don't think, just move. Feel. Notice what parts of your body are calling out to you. Listen to what they're saying, and respond with your own unique movement.



Every day I curate. The decorations in my apartment.. the products in my beauty cabinet.. the 
photos on my 'gram. There's something about creating entire mini-worlds that feels so good to me.

I was introduced to Tictail last fall, and now I'm hooked. It's overflowing with chic independent brands and shopowners. Tons of gorgeous products to add to my oh-so-carefully-curated feed. But the part I ~really~ love is turning that feed into real life. I've already bought a handful of the items I added to my feed. It gets addicting to be honest. I just love knowing that I'm supporting these rad brands -- many of which are in Europe. I get kinda giddy when I'm paying for something in Swedish Krona. (Thx Paypal.) There is some realllly high-qual sh*t on here. This bag? These shoes? Bought 'em both. This hat? This jacket? Yup. Next on my list is this coat for fall...

NEway. Y'all should get on the Tictail app because I think you might love it. Follow my profile on there as I curate some more!! Hehe.


Jackson Hole

Just over 5 years ago, when those beautiful, beautiful people at STA Travel selected me as one of their two World Traveler Interns for the summer of 2011, I knew my life would change. I knew I was about to be taken through an unforgettable set of experiences. I knew I would come back with a string of memories that would stay a part of me for life. But I had not a clue to what extent.

Dutch was a complete stranger to me at the time. We literally met face to face for the very first time in Charles de Gaulle airport in Paris. He flew in from Colorado. I, from New York. To be totally honest, I was nervous. It terrified me to envision spending so much time with this person. Three and a half months enduring the highs, lows, and in-betweens of travel with a guy I knew hardly anything about. What if we had nothing in common? What if we got sick of one another? Or worse... What if he didn't get my humor?!

Five and a half years later I can confidently tell you, with tears welling up in my eyes as I type this, that I would not give up this friendship for anything. Not a thing.

I don't know how they did it, but somehow, those nice folks at STA Travel paired me up with one of the greatest humans I've ever come to know. 

There's nothing I could ever do for them that would measure up to how much they changed my life that summer. All I can do is express my gratitude... and put a little spotlight on them so that you may think of them when you start to plan a future trip. 

Dutch and I went on a bunch of different group tours as part of the internship -- y'all can meet so many awesome people that way. Maybe you wanna do a lil tour through Costa Rica? Peru? Thailand?? We did Southeast Asia and it was raaaaaad. Whatever you book, you should use their airfare deposit program which will save you lots of $$$. ;)

I want to give a huge gigantic ridiculous thank you to my STA Travel peeps for hooking it up on the trip I just took to see Dutch in Wyoming. I totes recommend booking with them on your next big thang. They might just change your life, too.

Ps. Dutch... ILY forever. Bye.